A few days ago you blew up my text with just such hatred and mean and negative things. I was mind boggled, in shock and awe, and just plain dumb-founded by your words, realizing your words weren’t yours but hers!
I figured out a while ago that you’re with her and I’m ok with that as long as you’re happy. What I don’t like is you’re ok to talk about me even though I stood by you. You’re ok to let someone disrespect me when I’ve never done that to you. And I can’t fathom why she needed to start drama when I haven’t done anything wrong, sad what jealousy will do to a person!
No one has ever heard you speak ill will or down to me and they are just as baffled as I. I don’t know what to think, I’m at the point where there just is never going back, how do you forgive someone that is ok to purposely hurt you intentionally?
But as I am told, You don’t! I did my thing and if you’re not willing to forgive yourself then it’s your burden to carry. That is your sin! God always has a plan.
It’s sad to have that rejection. It’s not my burden but my heart that is heavy! I know God has a plan, I know God wouldn’t give me more than I can handle but I ask myself 20 years of love, support and comfort for you and you’re ok to break me. I can’t tell you what a hold you have on me, maybe I was hoping, a small chance that you actually cared or that all the lies you told me were small truths.
The I love you, the you’re my everything, the you make me a better person, the I want to marry you! Why ask me to marry you, set a date and claim your undying love, Why I ask!!! It’s all lies, you never meant it. To you, those are just words with no meaning
20 years of all those lies!
Normal people don’t go around purposely hurting others, the sad part is I’ve walked away so many times knew it was for the best yet you found a way to draw me back in telling me all the crap I want to hear to booom to pull the rug out from under me once again like an old rerun of Charlie Brown.
Today I stood strong, that hate she has for me God has cleansed me of it. So to the woman who feels the need to hate me out of jealousy. this is to you!
I just want to say I FORGIVE YOU! I forgive you for your betrayal, I forgive you for thinking its OK to pretend to be him, and I forgive you for lying. You see your text message on Monday I know wasn’t from him, I have had 20 years of talking to him to know how he writes, how he speaks, even if he was there with you. I know it wasn’t him, not his words or his thoughts! but as I said I FORGIVE YOU! I even forgive you for lying to him and his family claiming that I am supposedly Calling and hanging up on you! I didn’t even know you existed so how could I get your number, but don’t worry I have my phone bills to prove that the first time I ever spoke to you or even called you was Monday! the truth always comes out!
So let me hit on some things you said in your text. I’m pathetic about my wanting a divorce, if that makes me pathetic OK I guess I am! you see I know that NO relationship is perfect whether it is with your siblings, parents, or friends, but then again I can see why your so angry I would be angry too if someone I cared about and supposedly they cared about me took a vow for better and worse and then left me, You can’t go around hating people because your husband left you (well that’s what I heard anyway)
You said that I was his thought, Ok I think I will take that as a compliment you see that thought he had was for over 20 years, 2 decades (if your unsure what a decade is its 10 years so that’s 20 years) of letters, phone calls, a friendship that grew, and that thought he had was told by him to his family so I guess I’m ok with that! Do I love him YES with no doubt! You should feel lucky HE IS ONE OF THE GOOD GUYS!
You also pointed out that his family doesn’t want me around, which is ok again I can understand your frustration as a woman it’s so easy to hate another woman for NO REASON at all, but you see I have established a relationship with them for more than a decade, (again over 10 years) I don’t feel the need to disrespect them, or hate them for no reason and I have NEVER felt the need to barge in on their family and take advantage of them!
You can HATE me all you want, you know NOTHING about my life but a small and I mean very tiny of a fraction of what has been said about me, its kind of like glancing at a book, skimming the pages, you don’t know what the book is about till you read it, Now I am NOT expecting you to like me, as I don’t really care about you, Well I shouldnt say that God does say in Matthew 5:44 Love your enemies, bless those that curse you, do good to those that hate you, and pray for those who speak evil about you, and persecute you; So Ill end this now but again I FORGIVE you, maybe its time to forgive yourself God doesnt like ugly (not in a beautified way) but in heart! and I will continue to pray for you!
Many blessings to you,
Signed a woman that loves him enough!